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In Life Matters, Size: Tall on July 29, 2008 at 11:43 am

The strange thing is, while I feel like someone’s already badmouthing me, anger is still not there. I am letting go. Surprisingly easily. Maybe it’s because I find the need to draw the line between mere storytelling and badmouthing. Until I am able to do that, perhaps I do not have the right to feel any emotions. Relief or anger, it’s something for me to decide later on- IF i get the chance. Otherwise, it might be better to just let things pass and pretend nothing is up. True or not, I’ll leave it all to karma.

What would be most disappointing is to find out that a friend has turned into a complete jackass. Unfair as it may be, at least that’s how I see things at the moment.  Something like “guilty until proven innocent”.


Random Thoughts: Zoolander graduated.

In Life Matters, Randomness, Size: Grande on July 26, 2008 at 4:33 am

Unlike the several graduations I had in the past, yesterday’s was certainly the least emotional.  You can blame it on the camwhoring we were all guilty of or the two remaining electives I need to complete within the next 3 weeks. The sadness just wasn’t there this time around.  Talking to a couple of people made me sad a tad bit but it was completely dissimilar to what transpired in DC during the eve of my departure. That night saw the worst of me. Today, I was talking to a friend and she surprisingly (and certainly interestingly) remarked that I no longer seemed as happy as I did back when we started. It honestly caught me off guard. It was a completely surprising observation.  But I admitted that there was some truth to it. Even the past two weeks or so, I know I managed to fuck up some things which were perfectly working out well.  Though I feel some level of guilt, it is quite unusual that I’m feeling like I couldn’t care less anymore. I’m just waiting for August 12. I am not going to have a more interesting life there, certainly not. But there was just… Nevermind.


It feels great when your hard work pays off. The ceremony yesterday gave me two reasons to at least feel better about all the hard work and lack of sleep the past couple of weeks. Though there’s really no other option, the award for outstanding thesis and the numerous praises for the video I made I guess were more than enough a compensation.   Perhaps the award gives me a better sense of achievement.  That pile of readings and the paper whose pages grew by the day served as my lovechild for the past 3 months or so.


I realized how easily I can get attached to people. Talking to another friend last night made me realize that even after meeting some of them just a few weeks back, I do have the tendency to already feel some level of sadness towards the idea of not seeing them again.


I thought it was fun acting like Zoolander yesterday and mimicking his blue steel look. I got a new haircut just hours before the ceremony so I had a big ego going there. lol.

Last Shot.

In Life Matters, Size: One Shot on July 19, 2008 at 1:34 am

Before I leave CA, I need to have my last shot at the following:

  1. Clubbing
  2. Karaoke
  3. Thai food
  4. Korean Tofu
  5. Korean BBQ
  6. Japanese Ramen
  7. Japanese Sushi
  8. Boba Milk Tea
  9. Vegas and SF perhaps
  10. Er… clubbing?

Somebody save me.

In Life Matters, Size: Venti on July 18, 2008 at 11:02 pm

That list below is what has been preventing me from writing more entries, as much as I wanted to. With my thesis supposedly due today, this is certainly going to be (another) typing day (just as yesterday had been one , too). I might as well continue with that by writing here as I take my break. With a little over a week left before all those things on the list need to be done, unfortunately, I can only cross out two of them- learning flash and the class directory. And I don’t think I’ve even accomplished much of that. I’ve learned just enough to begin the presentation we’re showing for the graduation. I certainly don’t have much time to write so much, so let me make this another ‘random thoughts’ entry.

1. Starbucks’ new drink, Sorbetto, is yummy. Pretty indulgent just like pinkberry. Having worked so much yesterday, I decided to treat myself to one mango sorbetto after finishing my cup of coffee at 9pm. What’s good about it is that it has just the right level of mango taste. I am not a big fan of the fruit so anything excessive (what is considered normal by 99.9% of the world) is a no-no for me.

2. I fucking hate clumsy people. I feel like I’ve always had bad luck with roommates (except for the last one I had and the person living in the other room in my current apartment). I don’t give a shit of you snore so loud it sounds like you’re choking but for crying out loud, CLEAN UP. As if it’s not enough that he’s such a _______ ______-______ (don’t even try to figure out- the number of spaces don’t correspond to what those 3 words are supposed to stand for). Geez.

3. I am torn between being sad and being happy about leaving California. Three more weeks (I think) and I bid farewell once again to people, to places, to CA life. Things haven’t really been my cup of tea (or need I say milk tea? lol) but they’re not bad either.  Add to that the scary feeling I have given I am still jobless (and seriously don’t have time to even apply for jobs).

4. I am wondering when or whether to go back to the Philippines sometime late September or October. While it would be more than awesome to stay here in the US, I certainly don’t think staying in IL will be much fun considering I’ll be a home body, looking for a job day and night, with no car to drive (and no fuckin driver ‘s license to use for driving in the first place!!!) and no friends to hang out with. My aunt lives in the suburbs so going out ain’t going to be easy (well, the mere fact that I’m living with my aunt is gonna make it difficult for me to go out).

5. I’ve been a work slave the past several days and I am just fucking tired. My only breaks are lunch, dinner, and the “overextended sleeps”. Konti na lang; I’ll get there. I can’t wait to get to the finish line.

Thinking about all these things certainly is gonna put me on the brink of insanity. Now back to work.

PS I need to see The Dark Knight to relax. I need a haircut. And I need to do some malling.

The Death of Me

In Life Matters, Size: One Shot on July 11, 2008 at 7:52 am

The next two weeks are fatal. And they haven’t sunk in yet…

For the next two weeks, the following needs to be accomplished:

  1. (Final) Thesis Draft
  2. Thesis Final Presentation Powerpoint
  3. Thesis Final Presentation
  4. Final Presentation- Elective Powerpoint
  5. Final Presentation- Elective
  6. Paper 1- Elective
  7. Paper 2- Elective
  8. Class Directory
  9. Learn Flash for the…
  10. Graduation Video
  11. Movie- Weekend 1
  12. Movie- Week 2
  13. Shopping- Weekend 2
  14. Graduation Prep?

And yet I am still not stressed out. Why, why, why.

Child Musings at 3.

In Life Matters, Size: Venti on July 8, 2008 at 11:05 am

For some people, being branded childish is such a slap on the face. But for the others, it is nothing but a mere empty label. It hasn’t been only once, or twice, or thrice, or even ten times that I have been branded such. At 23, people expect a certain level of maturity, if not complete maturity. Yet at 23, I find myself still chuckling and getting hysterical at the shallowest of things, some of which perhaps only a 5-year old kid would appreciate. While I do get reminded at times that there is some growing up that needs to be done, some things that need to be caught up on, I still can’t help but indulge in the frequent moments of childishness.

I am often called crazy but after giving it some thought, it then makes me wonder- am I crazy because I am wild, ridiculously and thoughtfully funny, and just plain out of my mind? Or am I crazy because of my already apparent childishness and clumsy, gibberish thoughts? I am not writing for the plain reason of defending myself but instead to make sense of all this, if indeed it is possible. You meet me the first time, I am completely silent (although that is slowly being changed). You meet me the 2nd time, I become more open. You meet me the 3rd, 4th and 5th time, depending on the circumstances, you can probably already have the ‘good’ impression many people have of me.

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Fortune Cookies

In On Whatever Things, Size: One Shot on July 2, 2008 at 11:19 pm

Fortune cookies are multi-purpose.

1. They feed you.

The cookie itself is something for you to enjoy. It doesn’t taste bad anyway. Not too sweet, kinda bland but nevertheless okay.

2. They give you encouragement.

Once I got a ‘fortune’ which said I was close to reaching my dreams. And I kinda felt it was true. At least I felt I was getting closer.

3. They surprisingly offer comic relief.

“Your charm is simply irresistible.”


In Interesting, Size: Tall on July 2, 2008 at 6:09 pm

This is a truly remarkable and satisfying find for the inner dork in me. Not that it took me thousands of clicks on Google to find this, no. I am just amazed at the simple but classy animation. The graphics too, sorta. Courtesy of The Financial Times, following are some tidbits on oil. The first relates to the politics that surround it and the protests that have happened in different part of the world in light of the continuous rise of crude oil prices. To find out more information about each country represented, click on the image to be directed to the FT site.

The next three show the flow of oil, and the biggest producers and consumers. Again for more information, just click the images.

Key Economic Trends

In Interesting, Size: Venti on July 1, 2008 at 6:30 pm

Here yet again is an article from Dr Habito’s No Free Lunch column that appears every Monday in the Philippine Daily Inquirer, talking about 10 economic trends that serve as good measures as to how the Philippine economy is doing at the moment, after 6 months. A good way to check if we are still following or at least close to the “7.3% ” growth reported for last year. I think I will be doing this quite regularly from now on. This way too, I get to follow his columns, which I’ve always wanted to do.


10 key economic trends

By Cielito Habito

TODAY we reach the halfway mark for this current year 2008, and everybody knows it’s been a challenging year for the Philippine economy so far. Based on most recently available data on the economy, below are 10 key indicators that provide a good picture of how the economy has fared this year so far:

1. Prices are rising rapidly. The inflation rate has already hit double-digits outside of Metro Manila (10.2 percent), with food showing the steepest price rises, at 14.3 percent nationwide. Surging oil and food prices have been the primary culprit, and while this has been a global phenomenon, this gives little comfort to the average Filipino whose wages are being left even farther behind by the soaring cost of living.

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Ateneo TA found dead

In On Headlines, Size: Tall on July 1, 2008 at 6:00 pm

I saw this report from my INQ email update by accident, because I usually don’t read what’s in it. I tried to remember who he is but no face I can recall. Apparently, he’s from the same batch and from the same school. SOM, ME, 2006.


Ateneo teaching assistant found dead in schoolroom

Cops find signs victim killed himself

By Marlon Ramos
First Posted 03:29:00 07/01/2008

MANILA, Philippines – A teaching assistant of Ateneo de Manila University (AdMU) was found dead on the campus Monday in what the police said was a case of suicide.

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